"FWB"

Too close now, we have gone past that, we say best friends , yet the chemistry is almost too much to bare! Waking up in the middle of the night to kiss, have sex, or just say I love you! We both ache and miss eachother,yet we say were "just friends". I know were more than just playing with fire, more throwing ourselves into an incerator. We try to make it liveable , then one of hurts the other. I hate this limbo this back and forth its misery, comfort and feeling loved at the same time........I am confused hurt wallowing in self pity for no reason its masticistic in the least. My body hurts , my mind is wasted on a lost feeling I am twisted in pain and guilt when i dont do whats expected but that is not me do we really need "friends".