good bye

Good bye As i stood looking at you through the glass making eye contact as though bidding farewell machine everywhere i was left lost as fear and pain crept it i was with no tears crying felt like opening the gate way out of this world i feared thoughi could not let pain obstract faith that night i had to leave you in the hands of stranger with hope they would resarect your fading life i prayed to trade places butit wasn't my time 2am the phone rang, i could hold my heart in my hand pinched my hand to see if the ring was not in my dream and yes i was awake what i feared had become reality why you?but who else? over and over i asked myself keeping together to calm siblings as pilar of strength i am to them the edge to scream, and to cry though tears were just not coming inside torn into pieces i still cry long after all have healed i am in pain as i am without you mom