Goodbye forevermore

I looked for you down by the sea along the pebbled shore, my body weak from missing you; I trudged for hours foot-sore. But, though I felt your presence dear and heard your whispered name so clear, I lost my hopes in one large tear. Goodbye for evermore. The journey home I don’t recall; I drove without concern. In reflex, automatically, I knew each twist and turn. My eyes were misty in my grief, made actual by my belief that tide had taken like a thief, and left me here to yearn. The house was cold, unwelcoming and chilled my aching soul. You’d never more envelop me nor fill the hearth with coal. What was it love that made you go when always I have loved you so? I guessed that now I’d never know, nor evermore be whole. That night as I sat in your chair all wrapped up in my shawl, I pictured you upon the bridge, well lashed to fight the squall. You’d known the sea was angry when you left the shore to sail again. Did you intend to hurt me, then, or just my heart to maul? But morning found a different view inside the heart of me; I knew you’d never close the door on all that we could be. The plans we’d made when we were young, upon which all our dreams were hung, were songs my sailor man had sung each time he went to sea. Again I walked along the beach and searched its pebbled floor. but now with eyes that burned with hope, I knew what I searched for: the message you had sent to me as you met with your destiny, farewells from you to set me free and loving evermore.