Goodbye Gate

29 Jan 2008 I stood before those solid gates, shaking them fiercely with all my heart, determined to break through. I think they had so long ago rusted firmly shut Who’d tossed the keys? You? I had caught a glimpse of those loving eyes through the finely carved design A beauty that had teasingly drawn me closer to those deceiving obstructions. So blind Once I had even squeezed my arm between the gate’s delicate curves and felt your skin against mine Oh, I had longed to feel the whole of you with me so I began to climb Spring brought with it the sweet scent of hope Summer left me dizzyingly faint Autumn laughingly blurred my vision of every holding place as it shook leaves before my face Winter iced my fading grip, that was when I slipped Alone No more shards of brick showering overhead all pieces that had touched your hands The scars smiled up mocking me some still bleed I picked myself up, pressed my cheek against the cold metal anything to feel I turned away heavy hearted, kicking a loose rock. It bounced and caught me in the stomach winding me Doubled over, the taste of sand in my mouth, on my lips salty tears the silence echoed in my ears A year of dirt road is all I see but if I just crawl for now the distance between the gate and me will grow Goodbye gate, Goodbye you Will the scars fade? Will you find the key? I don’t know You never found them for me A stabbing realization… a mimic of my family… ------------------------------------------ I’m sorry dear, sadness lives here no more When last I saw She’d found a place upon these pages She’d just stayed too long and bored me so So I made my choice and let her go