Green Eyes

My Dear, this is for you, I know you will never read this, but I will send it to you in my dreams... A first love, never again could I feel, never again was it ever the same... Eight years later.... Dreams come and go, maybe taunting me I dont know. your presence always radiates as if a part of you lives in me... I wish that I could stay asleep, I pray each night that we will meet, In our sacred place, that we can share for a moment, the time that we so took for granted. I think about, what it is that makes me miss you so much. Your sweet innocence, your kindred spirit. Your kind eyes and your soft touch. Your inviting smile and your warm lips. The way my spine tingled with every touch. I knew a love of this kind to be shortlived, as a blessing I am sure, I thank the gods. I wish I could still be there to shelter you from the real world. But time has taken you from me, I wish I knew where you went to. I wish I could hold you, once more feel you.... For me you were my first, for me you have become, my only.... So many years I have tried to keep you, how foolish, that is how I lost you. If I could do it all over again, all the tears all the hurt. The crying at nights wishing you were here. The screaming at night, the cutting and the self infliction. Never have I, never will I, ever feel you, ever see you again... To do it all again, I would not think twice. I hope that you some day realize, you were my first and my only.