How Dare You

How Dare You! You are gone, almost forgotten, You have no right What makes you think you can come back And fit in again? You hurt me so many times, You tore my heart into shreds, And laughed as I lay dying An emotional termination at your hands. You crushed my soul with every act, And eviscerated me with every word - I love you became synonymus With dread, pain, and hopelessness. You were a demon, a whore, a bitch, A disease that consumed my common sense. I was wasting away inside, And you reveled in it. You foul monster, you putrid slut, How dare you try to change? How dare you come, after all these years, And tell me you are sorry? What fucking right have you To smile? To cry? To breathe? Every fiber of my being, Wants me to tear you to shreds with my hands. And you know that... You can see it in the fires of fury burning in my eyes, In the way my body is shaking with Barely suppressed homicidal rage. But you also know I won't touch you. Your gender is your salvation. But how can I be expected to forgive you? After all you have done to me? You have no right to be here. You have no right to ask for a second chance. Yet I can't stop wanting to hold you, Forgive you, love you. And I hate you for that. I hate me because you make me hate you. How can I still be moved At the sound of your voice? Your lips, moist, yearning, poison; Your body, supple, passionate, vampiric; Your voice, alluring, captivating, deadly; What are you doing to me? I hate you for loving you, I hate you for wanting you, I hate you for making me believe that somehow, Somehow I failed. How dare you.