How to know

there may be no other way to explain why these harps and violins break each time the music attempts this solitary note when the opposite should be true, how to know when the end draws near do the birds fly in opposite directions or does the horizon begin to sink and not swim like the fish in stormy seas churning those buttercup hues . why all this grasping for anyhintof recognition is it because I am falling inside myself each day lower than before fading in front of the sadness that no body sees ...