I am an Orphan

There are so many people surrounding me But I keep on asking myself why I feel so lonely I have friends, parents and siblings Shouldn’t I feel so blessed and lucky? I don’t understand the reason why I feel so miserable I act cool and look as if I don’t care But inside a thousand daggers piercing my heart When reality strikes that I only hold a family in mere name. I often hear people say I have a wonderful family I’ll faintly smile in reply for I don’t know if I should be happy Because they have no slightest idea how pathetic we are How we try to cover our frustrations with smiles and laughter. I can’t figure out if I’m an orphan or not When strangers’ eyes are watching true meaning of family we became However when the curtain’s down our family is eaten by darkness In there, smiles and laughter becomes bitter and everyone bickers. When darkness consumes everyone’s hearts I run into my room To run and hide into my safe haven I called To run and hide into a place it’s far from doom In there, I could cry all I want ‘til I get tired and fall asleep. I have no idea when did our family fall apart Or should I wonder if we ever did became one Well, either way I know I’ll always feel lonely For I have been destined to become an orphan for some reasons.