I'm ok

I don’t understand And it doesn’t make sense But my emotions seem To always be on the fence When around friends I can laugh and smile But all alone I feel Like a scared child My heart starts pounding And thoughts start racing My body shakes And I start pacing When people ask I’m happy and cool But as I look back I feel more like a fool I don’t know why I can’t get the words to say That something’s wrong I don’t feel ok But yet as they ask again And I smile and nod That everything’s fine But that’s a façade I’m being dramatic To myself I keep saying That this pain is a trick My mind is playing I question my emotions Again and again And until I know the truth I shall keep them within So I will keep smiling And my emotions at bay Telling everyone That I am ok.