I'm sorry

Where did i get the nerve the nerve to ever.... no i should have never but it has happened,however My innocent baby i heard my ma say I was born innocent but the minute she sold my soul i knew i had to do my all My all had given up for her I gave up my childhood for her They said i was doing justice and ever since that day i was never at ease At night, scary and dark Trembling, troubled soul With no peace at all nightmares Odours of stale blood on my tiny, murderous hands All this torture for what, for what Peace, my child, for peace so that say Shooting and stabbing Since i was seven i'm now eleven I'll never see heaven or will i... thou shall not murder oh ma how could u sell me to the rebels child soldiers what a torture....