I WANT to die

I want to die and cease to exist. No afterlife, no thought of rebirth. I don’t want to be immortal or see the “light”. I don’t want to know what’s wrong or right. I want to live now, not after I die. I want to treasure life, even the tears I cry. If there’s life after death, then this “life” is a lie. So, I’ll appreciate LIFE, even the moment I die.