If before then

Terrorists, bio-weapons for the highest price to the wrong party apocalypse of world war three they who do not project into all the tomorrow's are free. just over 3 years ago my vision was blurred, my life a complete mess, my speech often slurred tried to find my way in a world that my mind found absurd I was not content, myself I couldnt save and no one lives happy so close to the grave I don't know how much life was granted to me and in these days of war death and strife I just want to be alive and breathing in case each breath were my last tomorrow today will be yesterday and therefore the past if before then I am gone fly the flag at half mast and for a life though not long lived, know I found heaven at last.