In Vain

ColdI sit I wait in vain my sanity compromised hindered with thoughts unclean unpure Breaking away from all familiar grounds Whilst pain being my closest friend Wavescover all innocence while sun rise uncover the filth That darkness prevailed over for so long I wonder if it was worth the deception And the triumph of humiliation The replacement of passion to obsession The elimination of guiltless consciousness Well clearly it was never the case But a lesson was learnt, I hope, or was it? Can history repeat itself in a somewhat different approach? My judgement clouded I cannot think clearly Lost in the web I spun myself as an addict of self-inflicted pain I become immune to the throbbingpain Whilst it breaksto a point beyond bearable I can only hear my heart breaking I brought it upon myself Cold I sit I wait in vain Self-inflicted pain is never to be pitied I'll roam solemnly as mypenalty for my foolishness This is my destiny I chose... I am forsaken