Instability

It sounds bad But I often dream of instability The power to not get out of bed The resilience to not face the world The ability to curl up in a ball and say This is where I’ll stay High functioning In the sense that I Function for everyone else But not for me I clamber out of bed I crawl out of bed I stumble out of bed Day in Day out Everyday And for who? Not for me It seems It sounds bad But I often Dream Of Instability