is/was it love? or infatuation.

It was just a dumb fight, How do i breathe now? I know i said we should just be friends. Why was it so hard for me? I love you, I swear. It hurt so much. My heart stung, the tears would not hold back. You didnt care. Not one bit. That hurt the most. I think. You didn't show it hurt for me to go. Saying you were upset only to saying goodbye to my nephews was by far your damn biggest mistake. Your right. I'm only a teenager. I don't know if what we have is love. Why do we fight? It's only been 3 months. I was terrified i would never see you again. i'm so glad i didn't let you go. I owe you. love? [[ Guys i know it doesnt rhyme. Im just saying whats in my heart and mind. please tell me why people fight. i need advice.]]