It cant be built back..

You’re special too me, my thoughts are of me and you. The great the things we share together, makes us come together. But maybe we share too much and get too close, because sometimes I feel that I‘m around you that little bit too much. A shame, with a huge deal of pain. As another part of me is wanting to be with you always, but anyways there no point in charades. It’s a love hate situation I have for you. Here I am weighing out the pros and cons, you’re a selfish pig, but yet together we still fit. One pro one con confusion concurs me. Bit by bit I pick up bricks to build us back. I attempt to construct the strong holding wall we once used to be. With a hope to weld the love back , and forever sit upon the wall with you again. Hold you close and start a fresh. Please don’t demolish what we first had. The love and the hate can wait for us, indeed hates pace grows faster. Our paths are widening, the wall is growing apart. We don’t fit, together me are a misfit of people hoping for something cannot be built back. I realize that now. I love you but I cant be with you, I’m better than that. Your still special but myself is worth more to me than what we now have. Were empty. The cons out weigh the pros. We can remember the good and forever hold the memories we shared. The sharing will halt but ill carry on caring for you. Don’t disbelieve me when I say I still love you. Your were my world my wonder, but now I ponder in self-pity as this is just so darn petty, I fret that you will hate me. Baby please don’t hate me, because inside were truly still in love. And forever I pray we shall be friends forever.