July Hurts

i can feel it in the air- hearin voices runnin thru my ear- sounds unsure, worried, on top of scared- sayin ain't no need to ever be found in fear- IM HERE- always watchin over you- your eyes the same color as the skies up here- peer into the clouds- but blink when you cross the sun- LONLINESS IS DONE- theres never a reason to run- a reason to cry- a truth to lie- like birds wit bayb wings you can learn to fly- GRAVITY IS MENTAL- like beats wit no words- your spirit is instrumental- your heart is the pace of my walk- your halo is equivalent to a thousand candles- YOU LIGHT MY LIFE- i do have a lot of tuff nights- despite holding onto nothing but thoughts- invisioning a future- with no hurt, no pain, no games- STILL EMPTYNESS REMAINS- so you fill my veins- with liquid strong enuff to melt bars- dreams long enuff to pass mars- i can find a seat amongst the stars- ANYTHING IS POSSABLE- theres always a cure- a remedy for the impossable clause- i can speak my words forever- but can you please hold on to the applause- I GRACEFULLY BOW DOWN- to a power i can't see- a being i can't be- i can try to amount to it- but it'd take longer then an eternity- TIME IS ONLY A WORKING BATTERY- you can look into my eyes- but pease do not flatter me- don't lift me up so high- cus when i drop i know it'll just shatter me- MY HEART IS WHOLE i know i do wrong- but i also can do right- i'll never give up this fight- wresteling my demons during sleep at night- wake up with a cold sweat- nerves dead- only reason i know i'm alive- is cus my bed doesn't lay six feet deep- and july does hurt- no matter how much i try to ignore- the facts- that everything good always goes away this month- i lose it all- family- friends- the best things to ever come into my life- sumtimes i push- sumtimes i have no choice- a low soft subtle voice- that can't yell loud enuff to say it HURTS- but it does- my pain is spoken in tears- tears speak nights of fears- days spent constantly in vain- but still the hurting from JULY- will always remain- years won't stop- days won't stop- they come and go- like rivers flow- like waves in the ocean break- and so does my heart, my spirit, my world- EVERYTIME JULY COMES AROUND..............