Reminiscence

Do you mind if I shut down, 
And build up this wall again 
To give a chance to my healing soul 
To bury the memories of yesterday? 
Let me lockdown and save myself 
From drowning in my own sorrow, 
From becoming someone bitter, 
Someone icy, someone unknown. 
Leave me be in my silent anguish 
And let's pretend that nothing is wrong, 
As the layers are too thick to dig up, 
The past that is buried beneath. 
Do you mind if I don't react today? 
Understanding the silence 
As the mind working to disguise 
The true pain that lies under. 
Forgive me for not crying 
As you pierce me 
And I see my own blood 
Gushing forth. 
My mind is trained 
To accept numbness 
As superior to the weakness 
Wrought from emotions. 
The stoic resurfaces.

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