Live as i have lived

In a day your life will change, for better or for worse, if that day is today just be prepared. for all my life I have been searching for the day, that all the pain is gone and all the hurt is no longer, is that day death I ask, well if it is, I have lived to live and left many behind, never gave up and never waivered, I have livedthe good life and shared it with many, yet still I am alone, as my mind struggles between truth and reality, one thing is for certain, never have I been able to predict what life would throw my way, although I have questioned many things, today is the day that I have the answer, I will look not to others, but to myself for it is me who is living with me my thoughts, my dreams, my aspirations, my reality, if it is you I lean on for these things, disappointment is all I will end up with, for in all of us is the answer, a road pre determined be a higher power, live as I live and prepare for that day know that all you have done was all you could leave no stone unturned and no doubts in the mind of other, they may question my motives, my means, my judgment, but never my heart! for who am I, it is I, that must deal this ones mind, it is I in a box that is just big enough to fit, like a suite on a special day only worn one time, but that box is mine. I will lay in it will pride, I will not fear that day, I will only hope that some are there to see me in my Sunday best. hopefully tomorrow is not the day, as I have business unfinished but if it shall be then let it be. today I will to all I can just incase tomorrow is that day. I will ask for nothing nor give no excuses for I am I and that is all I can give. some have loved me some have hated me and some may never know me, but to all I say live as I have livedand please don't judge me!