Living In Denial

I'm sitting here depressed Completely an emotional wreck My heart has been thrown off the deck And I've lost all self respect For myself Lord did this happen by fate? Because I didn't really have a choice To voice my opinion To show my remorse But now things have taken their course And now I can't even talk Because my voice is so hoarse From fighting with myself It's no use because I'll never win The good is always defeated by the bad And now I am so mad with myself And it is so hard to express How I really feel Because it's such a handful I don't know why we have to fight So let's just get to the bottom of it And stop living in denial