Lost

Im broken empty nothing but dust there is no shine, only rust from you I run when I should draw near losing you was my only fear too many lies my past is gray you call me closer as I drift away I can see the light, but I do not go slipping into darkness ever so slow my body is numb, without a soul and my mind is twisted, its taking a toll promise after promise, they all seem to break Im not sure how much you will take I have failed you, once again you see past the lies, you know where Ive been How can you forgive me, when I continue to sin O lord where art thou, your voice I cant hear only this demon who whispers in my ear seems I always find a way to ruin my life forsaken thee and I dont think twice I live on the edge and fall on a knife I miss you father this much I know you wait for me but I never show lost in the dark wandering to and fro why is it that I cant do right I try and try with all my might searching and searching never seeing the light I am nothing I am what never was