Lost Who I Used To Be

Lost Who I Used to Be Fighting to get back to reality, Trying be who I used to be, I feel like it's a never ending war, And I will never be me. I feel so lost, As I look into the mirror, I don't recognize who I see, Can this really be? I feel like a stranger in my own body, I hate the person I have become, But every time I try to change, I fail miserably. I don't know why I feel this way, I can't get these negative thoughts out of my head, It makes me say and do stupid things, Because I am hurt from what he has said. I think back to a few years a go, When I had friends and family, Life wasn't great but I was happy, And most importantly I was me. I miss those days so much, But I can never have them back, And I think how can I be myself and smile, When the people who made me, me; Are gone and no longer care about my existence