Mommy

Mommy can't you hear me? I'm calling out your name. Falling faster to my demise with every pound I gain. Mommy I feel fat And ugly in every way I look at myself with disgust I hate how much I weigh Mommy I am falling I'm almost to the ground Soon, I'll toss my cookies When no one is around Mommy when I am skinny, Will you finally be proud? Will you look at all the weight I've lost And ask me why? or how? Will you see my head in the toilet? Or notice I don't eat? And ask me what I did to myself, As I stare at my feet? Mommy I really need you Before I cross the bridge Before the monster gets to me, Before I reach the end. Mommy do you see the scars? That decorate my skin. See the knife, my hand is gripping Wishing for an end. Mommy I really needed you At that point in my life Why didn't you stop me? Why didn't you take the knife? Mommy look at my scars, And see what I've become The monster living in your house Who hides from everyone. Mommy don't you see my pain? Don't you hear me cry? Don't you hear me falling apart When I'm alone in my room at night? Mommy I am insecure And inflict harm upon myself. I really need you to realize this Before it's too late for you to help.