More Then Ever.

Is there a word stronger then hate, I hate you..... My whole life I have hated you, I am not some thing own, though you think you do, I hate you...... when my days come, and they will, long, short, filled with joy, I'll remember you, but you'll be the person my kids never knew, I hate you...... I was the adult, raising two children, myself and you, I hate you..... I am suppost to be able to depend on you, More then ever I needed you, you did your best, but you didn't try It wasn't enough, and I hate you....... Is it hard, I bet, I did it, but you didn't, you never would, Its easier to give up, to put the blame some where else, for that I hate you. you brought a child into this world, and wanted the glory of raising it, doing better with myself, because you failed, but I raised me, you, yes it might have been hard, to give me up, but you needed a mother. So did I. only to late I found out, and I was alone. and it is now more then ever, that I hate you, the times that I need you, but i knew you weren't there, you never have been nor will be, for this I hate you.