My addiction

I was keeping it grimey for a decade, now I'm ready to drop the charade and watch the parade. The high life is filled with too many lows, but I dont have to tell anybody who already knows. Ive got 6 months to get it right and hopefully nothing ever again will go up my nose... I got this world by the balls when I'm sober, but when i start using again it's a rap my life is over.. I got to much to offer that hasn't been disclosed, I got too much of myself locked up that I've never exposed It's easier to hide then look through and see what's on the other side facing that inner demon of greed inside of me is the last thing i need But i got to force myself through my old ways arn't getting me anywhere as much as i tell myself i don't want to I have to try something new If I break it down peice by peice, peace of mind might be reached. I always told myself that no one was better then me that's why i was my own worst enemy Now i'm part of the statistic of those who are self inflicted A sabotage warrior who will always be addicted Life's a big mystery and we are all just looking for clues on how to stay clean and not to use From the help of my brothers and sisters i meet along the way I'll keep the fight up and the drugs away and live my life sober each and everyday