My final prayer

If my car’s tire burst and I run into a brick wall And with all this I die What have I gained in life? If for some twist of fate my life should come to an end What would I have gained in life? Will there be someone in the crowd, Shouting my name and telling al around,”that was the person I truly loved” Or Will my whole life have been for nothing? No one standing beside my grave No flowers on my final resting place Not even a tear that will follow me in to the hereafter Will it all have been for nothing? Every day I woke, to see the light of day Just another waste of space A waste of the essence that keeps us going For now that I sit here, thinking, writing and just being alive I wonder what it all will mean one day Will it be that in my search for happiness, I never gave it the chance to find me? Always turning my back, walking away And for some strange reason just kept on running, away from what should be So if the time has come for me, and it is only my mortal body left to see And the pale complexion on my face is not what you know Remember that it might never have been what I showed you, but what I lived with every day Now I ask again If I’m gone, will you miss me? Would there be a void, you not know how to fill? When you walk in to a room Would you expect to see me there? And the vacant spaces confuse your mind When all is quiet, and only the beat of your heart is heard Would you expect me to break it with my evil laugh? Or will the silence bring madness to you soul When it is cold at night, and you seek a place of warmth Would the arms you cried in, slept in be missed? Or the cold imprison your weary heart So now when you have read the final verse and a tear unfold on your brow Do not feel sadness, no remorse and no repent For I have done what I would have wanted with my life I was where most only dream I have walked a mile with you all Knew you all and was a part of your lives I know that in my own special way I have touched each and every one of you A part of me will stay with you To bring a smile to your face when you least expect it Like most of the tings I have done so unexpected true my life I will hold your hand when you need it most, my shoulder will always be there to cry on And when you scream my name in a time of pain, I will always listen And in every way I will stay with you till the end of time So here are my final words to close what all will know, as “my final prayer” See you in the next life JdB