My Life's Obstacle

Shame and guilt across my face Can't lift my hands to much of a disgrace Can't get beyond the walls of the church hall I was walking so tall but I had to fall Torn apart my heart split in two I have no idea what to do This whole thing was a mistake I don't who's heart to break Im sure now I shouldn't have allowed this This paining confusion inbetween the bliss Sooner or later I'll have to do it to some one What's now formed can't be undone Wish I could go back and turn it around Erase all this leave the truth unfound I know I must get rid of these worldly things After all we are a fragile world with fragile beings I can't let go; I know its wrong I'm breaing down can't stay strong I have to be honest I can't tell a lie Just don't know who's story to buy Story of my life; such a difficult descision Its my fault, I've out myself in prison Its always as I get up that I fall to the floor This is too hard I cant do this anymore................ God please help me Im ashamed to say I've only turned to you now My life is such a mess because of what I've allowed I didnt listen to the guidlines I put up for myself I played the game, listened to everyone else This is nagging at me day and night I here and I'm weary I don't wanna fight I missing your presence you being near I know what you want me to do I hear you loud and clear I've got myselt into this don't know how to get out I know the answer I've got no doubts How do I tell them what I have to say Is this the solution isn't there another way