My lost gift

I want to write from my heart but the words are hardly can be written I guess my pen became so dry the feelings are not any more ink giving in my dreams i say poetry in my reality its all missing every piece of me want to draw a picture in my life i once saw how to deal with it how to let it flow but the problem is with poetry it wants to go !! shocking! isn't it? is there a medicine? or I'm cured? or Its all a night mare I cant be sure Tell me if you know some thing I have lost my magic one I want to feel poetry in my blood again run.