Philosophical

My Vengenance 
In the darkness I lay 
Eyes open wide 
staring into the nothingness 
Of lonliness and pride 
Floating on a bed of memories 
Of what could have been. 
Your face comes to me 
from the corners of my mind 
Smiling, beckoning, calling. 
Such is a wonderful dream. 
But, I forfeited your trust 
Broke you heart - your spirit 
Threw the very best of you away. 
Because of my lust 
I betrayed you 
And now, vengeance upon myself is here. 
It is so true and just. 
I can't ask for forgiveness 
Maybe another chance - to start anew. 
You are so wonderfully special 
I know you would say, 
Yes.