Never Weak, Always Stand Tall

I want to help you Save you Protect you I've always been this way Thie emotionless rock, Tough and unstoppable So when your body killing disease Struck you I kept moving, kept punching I made my skin your durable tissue My shirt your daily sheild Never weak, Always stand tall You taught me that So when your mind killing disease Took you by the throat and you feel to your knees When this emotion killing thrill ride disease tripped you And you didn't get up... This killing disease had you pinned Had you weak Had you hopeless It had you mad, sad, and carless Never weak, always stand tall You taught me that I never gave up on you Even when you wanted me to I never left you Even when you asked me to I never stayed down Even when you put me there This killing disease has forever Changed you I loved you to a maximust point I cared for you with all of my being So when you reaped those words upon my flesh “You selfish Bitch” This rock, your rock This emotionless, tough standing soldier Crumbled I broke I wondered why Why did you say that Why did you cut me down to nothing but ruble? This killing disease has changed you All I wanted was to help you Save you Protect you. This killing disease has turned you bitter This disease which chewed you Like bubble gum And turned your bones weak and brittle This disease which took you by the throat And brought you to your knees Is killing me Its breaking me Its poking me in places I never knew were sensitive Your Cancer is twisting my arm Wringing my heart And churning my blood I hate what this cancer has done to you I hate that you don’t see the same beautiful woman I see I hate that you cant be my rock like I was for you. I hate I hate I hate Two words I never thought I could ever mean Your cancer maybe gone Your cancer may have been chased from your blood But in my mirror I see what I know You see too I see a scar A scar too deep, to begin to fix Your cancer may have left But it took the one thing I’ve Always needed The one thing I’ve always wanted My mom And the sad part is Though you stand in front of me today And God knows I thank him for That every day I will never have my entire mom All of my strong, loving, caring And even funny mom Iwant to help you Save you Protect you But even with my late night sobs, And my tears in attempt to comfort Myself, I cant I want to help you I need your help I want to save you Even when I need you to save me I will always protect you I’ve always been this way I always will I’ll keep moving, keep punching Never weak, Always stand strong You taught me that Now your Learning that I love you mom I will help you I will save you I will protect you But I will always need you.