Normal

What does that word even mean? I'm not sure I don't even fit The description anymore I've done a lot of awful things Of which I never meant to do And quite frankly it scares me sometimes To look back on the things that I've done I wonder why I even did them It totally shocks me That I would do something so horrible Because that is so not my personality at all Generally I am a sweet, loving and caring young man But I have come across something Something on a whole new level Of which I do not understand Normal is something that I strive to be Which is something I do not possess in reality Maybe just maybe I'll accomplish this mission And hopefully receive some recognition For my faith and dedication And for all the medication That I have taken But only to satisfy those that surround me Because I just want to make them happy So that I can take a little weight off my shoulders Because the pressure is building And I am willing To do anything to put an end to it Because I don't know how much longer that I can go through it Normal is something that I strive to achieve Now you tell me is that so hard to believe?