NOT A POEM

I see no colour today, And the photos that made me smile yesterday, Make me cry today, For today I am suppose to view them with the eyes of a friend, And not your chosen companion, Today a woman smiled at me in traffic and I hated her, “Don’t you know I’m taken” I wanted to shout, But that would be half a lie, For I have been granted unwanted freedom, Still my heart is not my own, Have I lost you forever? I can not accept that, Never do I want to hold another, kiss another, Never can I love another for there is but one you, You have my heart, Pillows soaked in the tears of my bruised heart, Did not sleep, the night so long, But I did not count the minutes, Was too busy counting all the good times we shared, How can I regress my feelings and my thoughts, To fit my new status as friend? I want to hold you so much right now, So many things I have not yet done for you, So many things we have not shared, And now we might never… I can not accept that, I know you have feelings for me, so I’ll wait, I will not say sorry that I was not good enough, Because I am good enough and so are you, We deserve each other, We are good to and for each other, All our late nights and early mornings, Hours of conversation about nothing and everything, I can’t forget, Can you? I will have you back anytime, Could something melted be repaired instead of replaced, I hope so, I tell myself it’s just a break, she needs some space, Then we’ll be together again, better than ever, But there is no guarantee, So I will wait…