Not like me, PLS

I look at your innocent eyes That innocent smile Which brings a smile on my guilty face how could i do this? When i look into your beautiful eyes my heart confesses that i'm a betrayer. Your face is overflowing with enthusiasm You just can't wait to grow up To become like me - your mommy. The more you say that The more i ask myself how could i do this? In the cold and dark night as you lie there peacefully. I cry out Please don't end up like me My baby don't invite sorrow, cruelty and curses Into your precious, little life. I sit trembling terribly Wishing that things were up to me So i would abort this life this futile and horrible life i'm living. I'd abort being me, Me- the evil and canniving witch. But because of you, I have to go on. inside i'm dying with fear Watching you grow up, brings shivers to my spine. Oh, how i pray you don't become like me Your smile, your face-just like mine. Your walk, your talk.... Like mother, like daughter-what a disaster. A disaster i'm not willing to face.