Not So Strong Now

Normally I'm so strong Never shed a tear Never fall apart When losing something dear But now I'm just so vulnerable My heart is on my sleeve My tears fall freely For this dying world I grieve I cannot stop their flow They keep falling, more and more I'm so hopeless, so alone I don't think I want to live anymore Blood is thicker than water But sometimes it's just not thick enough My blood flows freely now Staining the floor the colour of rust I'm crying tears of fire My eyes are so goddamn sad They've lost that innocent sparkle I could have sworn they once had My face is crumpled My eyes are red rimmed My God, I'm such a mess I hate this place I'm in I'd smile if I could But I haven't the strength today I cannot live my life like this I've just got to get away You know I don't like this dark place But it's taken a liking to me How I long for those days When I was so innocent,so free