On self destruct

Maintaining still a will to survive Longing for the day when there’s nothing to hide This sequence of shame that now rules my life I sit and feel simply ashamed Attempting to shake demons from my back And arouse the confidence that I now lack Dispose of impurity, these demons that torture me I feel like a prisoner in my mind of despair You took me elsewhere but you led me astray Niavely and quickly I followed your way Left my soul searching abandoned for another day I can only sit here and sigh I’m on self destruct so why try