Panic

I deal cards for a living ( unfortunately) and have had issues with anxiety. This is a simple little ditty about a panic attack... Enjoy! ha ha :) Panic I stand and I smile. I think much too hard. I breathe in thesmoke. I deal one more card. My head hurts a little. And now a whole lot.... My body feels tingly, Oh God I feel hot! My heart beats fast, and much faster still, down my whole back, is a hot aching chill. My chest feels so tight. I have trembling bones, my knees feel soweak, I whimper andmoan. God, let me be ok! My heart beats so loud! I look thru squinted eyes, bright lights look like clouds. My temperature rises, my stomach is sick, My heart palpitates, My body feels stiff. I'm cold an I'm hot, a train brakes in my mind. A collisionis imminent, and relief Ican't find. I tremble and stutter, I sweat and I smile. I know I'll be better, or dead in a while. I sit for a minute, I sob and I laugh, I try to make light of it, As I fear God's wrath. My pulse slowly lessens, My chest pain subsides. My breathe becomes normal, I guess I'm alright. (for now)