Panic Attack

This never should have happened to me, You denied everything I was meant to be, Yes, oh yes I’m blaming you, For everything you’ve put me through, I’m afraid I was played, Basically betrayed, And I’m about to explode, Just like a grenade, But before I do, I’ll explain to you, What no idiot, Could ever misconstrue It starts as a twitch, but soon it evolves, As any bit of confidence soon dissolves, Now the twitch becomes a shake And I’m forgetting how to breathe it seems, And you start to just want to scream, As you try to just deem it a dream, But as it happens I can’t help but look at you , As you reign supreme, Smiling in your ignorance, Or maybe it’s sadism? I can’t tell so I, Just retreat back into my shell, Just trying to get out of this hell, This never should have happened to me, You denied everything I was meant to be, You destroyed everything I had come to love, Unable to even call for help above, Yes, oh yes I’m blaming you, For something you never thought was true, Something you’ve clearly never gone through, Feeling so afraid, unable to fight back, And it’s called a panic attack