Playing second best the secret

You looked at me when no one would You smiled at me when no one could Life went by, yet we stood still Holding me in your gaze your will I want to know everything that you may think The feelings behind every smile and wink I want to know why you cant just let go Is it be caus eof my past my story you know? Now you smile at me every time we pass I stop and wave, walk away and laugh A smile plays across your lips, Dont color me a rainbow or play me to the sky Dont tie your self if the chains are not yours Do not pass me by Dont draw me as broken glass Dont look into my eyes unless you can see To me your all there is Am I nothing but a friend? And yet there’s nothing but the waves Hard and crashing against my skin Water on my body Looking out upon the ocean Am I sinking deeper? Is the tide pulling me in? If I go under will I ever breathe again? Can I let go? Will I surface any more? Is my life in danger? Is this risk one I can take? I feel you pulling me further with your eyes I’m slowly going under, yet struggling in thought What if I let go? What if I don’t come back? I look into your eyes, upon the ocean of your heart I breathe in deep I feel my head slip under, the water caress my skin With that one last look you took me in You've made me believe You've made me see You've made me want to be all I can be You've told me you loved me, and I could have anyone in the world You've given me a smile and a wink and walked down the hall My arms were still warm from where you held me close My body still blushing from my hand in yours My cheeks are still tear stained I had finally stopped my crying But hearing your words, my eyes began to water I cried because I felt alone I cried because he left But now I cry because I want only you to hold It hurts me to see you walking away Going up to him, And having saved a laugh and a kiss to give you I long to be the only one you see Because you truly are the dark that's deep in me, I know you as a best friend, I want to know you as more To be the only one you care for, the only one that you adore You share with me your feelings I’ve seen you love, I’ve seen you cry And now you've left with this feeling of wanting to die Because in all the time I’ve known you and all that we’ve gone through I cared for you so much And in many ways I’ve told you But through all the tears and late night laughs I only wish you could love me the way that I love you. Is that enough? ( I guess I was just fusterated when I wrote this think about my girlfriends true love ( this guy that In someways I hate for what he did to here and I think shouldnt be worth her time but then I know how she feels and she should love him and love him forever.) I dont even know I just dont even know..... I have my boyfriend so why shouldnt she have the rights to her thoughts and feeling but I guess it is thta I am just jelouse that he mean more to her then me. I dont know time is change maynbe that will tell. sorry about the crazy long writ eI will try and keep them short from here on out. anyways I out. happy days and sleepless night to all and one my heart takes flight. Wingless)