R.I.P.

R.I.P. I wish I wasn't here, People say that I have nothing to fear, But I don't believe them at all, When I try my brain runs into a wall. If I could go outside once more, Getting out of bed would not be such a chore, My life would have new meaning, And nothing would be intervening. If only I could just get over this fright, Of being scared during the night, This fear of being alone, This fear I am making known. If nobody was afraid, No one would feel betrayed, They would all want to stay, And not go away. If you are reading this, Look deep into the abyss, Tell me what you see, Is it you, is it me. If I have to deal with this pain, Trust is will be a mental drain, A drain that shows no kindness, The type that will lead amiss. Where should I go, I wish this was something I could know, What should I do, Pay attention I'm asking you. Do you not know how to answer me, Look I'm down on one knee, Pleading with you to tell me what comes next, Help me I'm very perplexed. Lead me through this darkness, And help me to address, I don't think I can stand this test, So please, in peace may I rest.