Ramblings Of A Darker Notion

Ramblings of A Darker Notion Funny that I should give advice on not commiting suicide, When I've been suicidal. That a promise made in passion is asked to be forgot, For a fit of sexual action. That people could help themselves and others, And are choicing not. I can not understand, The place where I reside. And my mind is spinning madly, Close to the darkness that I lost. I've gained support and success, In beautiful fairytale of constant mess. The life I had for one I've made, Isn't letting go. Suicide and love filled thoughts, Don't just go away. Everything is moving on, Forgetting this and that. But I don't want to loose the bad, That made me who I was. I'm in a moment, Lost in time, begging to stand still. To understand what I was, And who I will become. The scenes around me not so nice, Have up and gone away. And something good has come around, That is bringing me disgust. It appears to me I need the carnage, And don't know how to stop. -Oct 08