Ramblings of a tortured heart

Real title: Ramblings of a tortured soul and a slightly educated mind. Worse off now than before, to much to comprehend feelings, emotions, thoughts, all rush through me faster and faster, more pressure, it builds until it bursts from me, my own red geyser it drips too the floor, thump, contact a reverbing sound echos up to my ears penetrating the caverns of my mind, the hollows of my soul shaking loose treasures buried deep inside memories of you uncovered for the first time in years thought i dealt with this, thought i put it to rest the pain re-surfaced, tension i'd forgotten feelings that rip me in two. these memories cover me, like an avalanche suffocating, smothering me, help me breath panic sets in, struggle, fight, i have to survive you are supposed to be my salvation, you were supposed to save me...