Self inflicted

Why am i doing this to myself? Staying in a cold unwanted place. Insults coat my skin like rain. There is no use in a umbrella when the insults will just tear right through it. I think there may have been a accident, because my mind does not work right. I've got everything right left and everything left right, and its such a treacherous burden to carry. I bite my tongue so hard it bleeds, listening to your ignorant beliefs being shouted at my face. I am alot stronger then i look. Yea, call me what you may, but im silent, not blind, i still pay attention... pay attention to every soul shattering insult the drips off your lips like snake venom. When will this end? I'm not sure i casn handle this. Lord, will you remove this cup ? it is far more then i can bare...