Silver tears.....(a new beginning)

my mind deep, in the abyss of thoughts through the clustered land mine of options unsure of what my feet are planted in will they be uprooted, or will they stay put circumstances surrounding me, and swallowing me in I'm drowning in the mess of pretence I want escape, from the masque of the old for deep in my heart, its become a cold blue the list carries on, of things to do as the critisism cuts the throat, and leaves a horrid scar words are spoken, not knowing how deep they will go as they cut out the heart of the innocent mortal be careful on the remaining surrounding as the evil will, cruelly comes true to be fearful of the unknown might turnout foolish, until it has been put to the test to rise above, with the courage of heart from the weakest of all give me strength, give me courage, give me bravery give me a hope, give me a future, out of this wicked slavery the presence is needed, the presence is near I need to see, I need to hear, but perfectly clear As silver tears drop on a golden pallet they will be used for beauty, for the painting of the masterpiece, of my life the diamond raindrops pour endlessly from the sky The advice I'm getting......Bottle it up, don't cry The slander of trust, the betrayal of friends or what they used to be the sorrow, the pain, of the knife that has been viciously and unpredictably stabbed in my back, unexpectedly and unfairly that look, the glare of being an outsider no longer part of what this group has become............. graciously and expectant I will await a new beginning