something so unexpected

I wrote you once When we were young, stupid, laughing and naïve I wanted to write the words That would stare through your soul Break down the fabric of your shirt Make a hole to your heart So that I could see inside of you. I kissed you once On toasted strawberry marshmallow lips, Now charred, cinders only Words fall endlessly underneath each other Each one turning stubborn as it lands Friendships form and fall like dust swept up in hands, As you hold them, the soot falling around Our once fresh love for each other. Blackening our shoes and feet The fire was never weak, but all fires must die out eventually. I never wanted anything but us. I expected every time to break my heart. But you gave me love. I was caught off guard I fell too hard and now my expectations come as a surprise And I don’t know what to do with them. What just happened? What just happened?