stand alone

as long as i breathe lord, don't show mercy for me i want you to bring everything you've got i wanna feel pain misery and sickness the kinda shit that pisses you off i want you to feed a nightmare into my dreams to wake me from my sleep just so i know the difference between what's real and make believe shatter my heart into a million pieces so i know what the shitty side of love feels like i'm begging you now to bring me down so please don't let me up and if you'd be so kind to leave me here i promise i'll get the strength to stand because i have no fear what lies in your hands but don't feel sorry for me i'm just trying to do it on my own i don't need sympathy to make me feel strong i'm just gradually building up my mind so the weakestpoints can stay alive and when depression hits i'll know how to control it along with every other feeling including happiness when i come that far i'll be done with the war than i 'll be able to live at peace with who i am and i'll have the strength to stand alone