Tell Me

Why do I keep you in my life? What am I getting out of this? You are not good for me, Never was, Never will be. You're just selfish, ignorant, and inconsiderate. I didn't ask for this and I don’t deserve this. It's humiliating that I endured the abuse for so long. I worshipped you, I protected you, But above everything else, I convinced myself that I loved you. And I felt it (when you weren't around) I wasted two years on you, and for what? I’m just back at the beginning again. But now that I have tasted what it’s like, Somehow it hurts even more than before. Every time I see you, It’s like you’re ripping my heart out. Crushing my lungs, Making it impossible to catch my breath. Throwing me to the ground, Watching as I scramble to get my balance. All while telling me you love me and care about me. I never expected much of you, Only to be a decent human being. Even that was too much to ask. You said it was my fault…always. My fault when you forgot my birthday, My fault you partied with your friends, My fault when that girl approached you. But my biggest fault was letting you blame me Over and over again. So you’re right, It’s my fault that we’re not together anymore. Cause after all this time, I’m finally done being there for you.