Temptation

All this temptation overwhelms me, Doing these things should seem crazy. But these stupid ideas stick in my mind, My people dont do this stuff, Not my kind..... Why do I want to be put in pain? Why is it I want to live in vain? I love the Lord with all my heart, And all satan wants is to pull us apart.... I shouldn't want to hurt myself, I shouldn't try to be someone else. I shouldn't want to do bad things, And go through all the heartache it brings. So why do I let this temptation overtake me?? And why to I go against the one who made me......?