That Beast in Me

That Beast in Me The mask I wear, honey, is for your protection I’m just sitting here and waiting for your direction Please point me to where I need to be For the sake of your own sanity There is nothing less than being alone But I stand here as half, so watch your comfort zone For I see what I desire; nothing less than your fire I step in temporarily like a helpless wife-for-hire If you think I’m just a girl, well doll, you are so wrong I have the appearance of weakness but I am very strong And I am patient too, you see, what I seek is your blood But I will go through walls just to prove that your love Is nothing… or he wouldn’t lust so hard after me Purity is a virtue, so I stand by him and agree That until you stand as well and see the reality you face And also change your ways, I will continue to stand and wait; Waiting by hell’s gates and just count to three Desiring to be free, solemnly yearning for a key Waiting so patiently for my kindred soul to find me And you wonder why I need medication to sleep? It’s because you and yours are trying to consume me whole With jealousy and lust as if I closed those doors Oh no, those doors, my dear, were closed by him When I said “no” as soon as he started approaching them So you can gnash your teeth at me and yell from afar As if it’s my fault that he stepped all over your heart No, I’m just a pawn that he decided to use He lusted after me because he got bored with you And somehow in the process, he fell in love; An obsession like no other, like I was sent from above When I am as human as any person on this earth But try telling that to someone who has lost his self-worth The fault isn’t with me… no… you and him are to blame I tried to stay out of it but my emotions run just the same I want exactly what you have, except I know I can be better See, I’ve learned from your mistakes and have faced worse weather So when I find my soul mate, I won’t play with his heart He’ll know I’ll love him up whether we’re together or apart But until then, I’ll face the torment until you get it right And you will, because I won’t succumb to his lusts tonight And when my sun has finally risen and desires to set me free He will know that I was being controlled by that beast in me. You, sweetie, brought out that beast in me.