the happiness i deserve

the happiness i deserve (backward/forward) i am again at the beginning and what do you think? a transmittable condition i am in love, an utterance that expresses itself how bitter the taste loneliness and tears eating me alive are my dreams a fantasy existence no time for my friends. i see now i did not recognize my entangling emotions in every way avoiding the one who broke my heart. i care not at all about the gossips’ natter discounting the logic behind this exploit i now comprehend to whom and what the raconteurs referred. i regrettably, am not the one who put perfect expression in every word denied by these idiots the happiness i deserve (Another poetry exercise; reads forward and backward, I am open to suggestions on how to improve this; it seems kind of rough to me) the happiness i deserve denied by these idiots in every word who put perfect expression i regrettably am not one the raconteurs referred to whom and what i now comprehend behind this exploit discounting the logic i care not at all about the gossips’ natter the one who broke my heart. in every way avoiding my entangling emotions i see now i did not recognize my friends. no time for a fantasy existence are my dreams eating me alive loneliness and tears how bitter the taste an utterance that expresses itself i am in love, a transmittable condition and what do you think? i am again at the beginning