they prescribe me smiles

I want to scream because I’m falling and the more I try to stop myself, the more I find myself grasping, reaching, searching for nothing Can you catch me? I find myself lost in a tornado of thoughts that threaten my existence Can you find me? I’m crying and I don’t know why I just want it all to stop Can you save me? I love my life, but I don’t believe in love Can you love me? Tell me what is happening because I am weak on my own My understanding of this feeling is like falling for death And the closer you get the better it feels And I want is to feel, feel something And all I can whisper is help Can you help me? Please